New Year New Work New Paths

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The path of love is not the path the comfort, Creina Alcock wrote.  And so we begin this year in a state of extreme discomfort, most of us, it seems to me.

I am thinking of my intentions this year, more acutely knowing that which I have taken for granted was not, in fact, guaranteed, and that time is the devil lulling me into a false sense of security, to linger at the party and sleep the days away, because tomorrow always comes.

Until it doesn’t. In 2017 I want to learn how to live every day like it was my last, which I have to thank the current administration here in town for helping me to visualize more viscerally.  So there’s that.

I’m going to try to slow down and pay better attention this year. Conquer the egoic anxiety that is always telling me I am not doing or being enough. I would like less shallow and more meaningful engagements. Less electricity and more papyrus. Embrace the troglodyte within unapologetically.

I also went down to the National Mall on Inauguration Day and for the Women’s March on Washington and made some photographs with my old crown graphic because I think that is how its going to roll this year and I better start now. I have big plans for this year and I hope you’ll follow along, or we’ll meet in the offline world and have a great conversation.

Back to Creina Alcock, she lived among the Zulu in  South Africa, and she had this to say about rupture and reconciliation, words which might serve us now:

“The path of love is not a path of comfort. It means going forward into the unknown with no guarantee of safety, even though you’re afraid. Trusting is dangerous, but without trust there is no hope for love, and love is all we ever have to hold against the dark.

New Work in American Photography 31

Untitled, Natchez, Mississippi

Untitled, Natchez, Mississippi © Susana Raab 2015

Untitled, Natchez, Mississippi

I have been remiss in sharing the news that I had a couple of images chosen for AP31.  The first is a new project I have been working on intermittently in Natchez, Mississippi and involves a lot of fine Paris china.  The South is such loaded territory for photographers. On one hand, there is this sort of fetishization of its gothic past lingering in the present, of which I am guilty of exploiting.  I am drawn to the place, since first reading Faulkner, O’Connor, Welty, Percy, Larry Brown, in that order.  The loving in-spite-of not because-of; the past reaching into the future, silently undulating in co-centric circles to your present; the unacknowledged shadow looming over everything – all resonate with me, and I suspect with many who pursue the Southern route – we cultural carpet-baggers seeking redemption.

I’m not sure where I’m going with this project, but I don’t feel under the same constraints I did when I was younger to have it all tied-up neatly at this stage. My projects ferment for a long time. And while I am sure this is partially due to procrastination, it is also due to my need for reflection.  Also I like to work on a lot of projects at once.  And I’m sure part of it is that it is extremely painful for me to finish these things – to say goodbye.

A prime example of this, is my project Cholita.  An image from which was also honored in AP31 (it was first published last year in EnFoco’s Nueva Luz):

Familia, Huanchaco, Peru, 2011
Familia, Huanchaco, Peru © Susana Raab 2015

I am probably done shooting it, but to sit down with the work and properly examine and mediate it, sort the text etc, feels like more than I can possibly bear.  So I am holding myself accountable here, that I am using this month of my birthday to sit with the work and frame my narrative, to close that door and every possibility it contained. It is time.

Former NFL Player Ricardo Silva for People Magazine

I had the great pleasure of photographing a great American a few months ago for People Magazine.  Former NFL Player banked $2 million dollars which gave him the financial freedom to sign up for Teach of America when he was let go from his NFL team.  For me the story is great on so many levels: turning adversity into opportunity (being cut from your NFL team), saving money to have financial freedom instead of embracing an opulent lifestyle; giving back to a community where one can lead by example; and lastly at Southeast DC’s Ballou High School! Go Silva and Go Ballou!

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Former NFL Player Ricardo Silva in his math classroom at Ballou High School where he is a Teach for America teacher. © Susana Raab for People Magazine

Former NFL Player Ricardo Silva in his math classroom at Ballou High School where he is a Teach for America recruit. © Susana Raab for People Magazine

From the article:

In his three years in the NFL – first with the Detroit Lions and then, briefly, the Carolina Panthers – safety Ricardo Silva banked $2 million, along with bragging rights to having intercepted two Super Bowl quarterbacks. But besting Tom Brady and Russell Wilson is a “closed chapter,” says Silva. It’s a 10th-grade geometry book he’s opening now, finding new rewards as a Teach for America recruit at Washington, D.C.’s Ballou High School. It’s not easy, the Baltimore, Maryland, native, 26, tells PEOPLE: “Football, all you got to do is wake up and work out and do what you’re told. With teaching, a student might come in and just say, ‘I don’t want to do it,’ and you have to find a way to teach this kid, get him motivated.” So far, so good. In just his first month at the head of the classroom – for which Teach for America provides training and Silva is paid a $51,000 salary in exchange for a two-year commitment to a disadvantaged school like Ballou – Silva has broken through with at least one of his 10th-graders, Alexus Wilson.

As for Silva, who was cut last year by the Panthers, he has turned down a lucrative college coaching offer and rejected his agent’s plea to play in Canada. He was drawn to teaching, he says, because “I would love to see kids go to college. And I feel like I can show them the way.”

Grace Huebscher for Mortgage Observer

Grace Huebscher for Mortgage Observer

Got to photograph a very cool woman and use one of my favorite colors: orange! Thanks Mortgage Observer, PE Emily Assiran & Damian Ghigliotty .

Young Lovers

Jovenes, Huanchaco, Peru, 2011'

Really one of the nicest things about being a lady fotografa is that you have a bit more latitude to take photographs of little children and lurk amongst impassioned teenagers without rousing alarm.  Even when you are carrying a large flash instrument in one hand and a shiny silver camera in the other.  This situation was fantastic, just like watching a double-feature or something.

BTW I think the color converts a bit odd in the browser.

Mas Cholita

Day's End, Playa Agua Dulce, Lima, Peru 2011

This is definitely one of those images where 7″ is not doing it any favors. You miss details like the world domination of Paris Hilton (the woman in the yellow t-shirt is sporting the Hilton visage upon her chest), and all the complexity and detail.

Corridor at the Art Museum of the Americas

Corridor at the Art Museum of the Americas

Just a few scant days (June 25) to acquaint yourself with the jewel-box of an art museum, the Art Museum of the America‘s just off Constitution Ave on Our National Mall, before Corridor, the 12-person exhibit I have been honored to be a part of closes.  It’s really a lovely exhibit curated by Laura Roulet and Irene Hoffmann, featuring photographs by Sofia Silva , Phil Nesmith, Bernhard Hildebrandt. Video, printmaking, sculptural and mixed media work are represented by Martha Jackson Jarvis, Brandon Morse, Michael PlattJeff Spaulding, Oletha DeVane, John Ruppert, Soledad Salamé, and Joyce J. Scott.  It is an I-95 talent pool and the results are eclectic, interesting, and beautiful. But don’t take my word for it, go check it out yourself!  Here’s some install shots of my wall.

Eva, left, next to two Miraflores urban scenes in Lima Eva, left, next to two Miraflores urban scenes in LimaEva, left, next to two Miraflores urban scenes in Lima from the series, Cholita, at the Art Museum of the Americas.

 

Paola and her Nanny; Girlfriends, Mancora; and Perdido from the series Cholita at the Art Museum of the Americas, DC

Cholita at the Art Museum of the Americas

Cholita at the Art Museum of the Americas


Cholita at the Art Museum of the Americas